not that i dont understd thgs... but i prefer to keep mum.. coz it hurts otherwise..its like i look dumb.. or ppl assume that i m .. or may be i show such traits... if u r good.. that certainly means fishy...is it?? or if u r not.. than definitely u r a vamp... may be i have not that great luck... that to make a fool out of me is not that difficult... to that my brother says why do u have to talk to anyone...why u want to be kicked..but can i stay as an alien.. he says try finding a middle way.. make frds,talk to them but to an extent... but is it like frdships r bound under any conditions... lately i m not making frds.. and lifes going ok.. the only instruction i get is it to grow up.. but is growing up means to be bitchy... husband (its been three years,but everytime i use this wrd 'husband' i feel weird-somewat i think i m still in class 12) got a very different ideology wid life.. he got a very suspicous nature... "if someone is doing good to u... thr must be some reason..try to find out.. if thr is not.. good..enjoy".... but i come from a different school of thoughts... my being "why to think.. if someone is trying to be smart wid u..let it be...anyways u cant do anythg bout thr smartness.." but i know my closeones r worried for me... coz i know they dont want to see me sad.. specially my brother...since he knows me in and out... "why r u always being kicked..and how many times do u want that,,why do u have to be 'Urself' wid everyone...",...but can have different facets ..no answer to this... i always say just one thg...

any mess or scuffle at the playground,never stopped me from going back again the next evening to play... life moves on... smarter ppl learn from thr mistakes... but i m fine the way it shapes for me.. not learning is absolutely ok wid me... got a tiny brain..cant mess it up wid permutations and combinations of judging ppl.. cant even give it a storage for incidents to get imprinted...

may be now i m just too scared...i m scared not just to mention it.. but i m actually scared..