Thursday, June 9, 2011

its 12:15 or so...for someone like me who prefers to go off to sleep by 10 , its pretty late.
thr is somethg bothering me... bothering is it... i dont know...i just closed my eyes.. n i saw all of them who matter to me the most... my family.. my frds
i saw all of them standing around me.. almost encircling me... but not standing close to me...
at a little distance away from me....
at this very moment m feeling detached to everyone.. for me.. its always 'us' or 'we'... but i m feeling so all of myself ... my mom is not looking like a mother to me.. dad not like my dad... they r all looking like individuals who matter to me the most.. irrespective of the relation i share wid them... i saw my brothers as well
i dont know... m i feeling lonely.. or m i feeling alone... i want to hold on to dem.. but i m not able to... have i grown up is it... watevr it is.. i m not liking it... but this is the reality... i think a reality that i always ran away from... everyone moves on.. so do i... i think its time for me to get out of the centre... n to make a way for myself... to be on my own... to love dem n everythg else... but need to be an 'i' now... detached attachment...is it...
just want to keep it simple... i love dem... n i know even they wud love to see me all by myself...
nvr wanted to... but its time to grow up!!!...time to be an individualist... me not making sense.. i know!!!...



PS- scribbled by a sleep deprived person!!..

4 comments:

  1. You know what I always feel- to appreciate others, first appreciate your own self-a masterpiece of God's Creation. :)

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  2. so do i feel... but me an ordinary gal..wid own set of lil issues!!

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  3. Relax...this too shall pass. :-)

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  4. na it ll not.. it goes parallel... the difference being at times it gets highlighted... else its always thr...

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