bring it on...

its human isnt it... to run after somethg which is running away from u.....

but at the same time... the one who is running away from u is also in the same marathon....

wen we do understd all this.. den y do we fall prey to it...

we know wats right n wats wrong.. wats the right if not the best choice ... but still we fall... we fail..

we give ourselves enough reason to mock... to mock at the person right thr in the mirror...

and den we hold ourselves tight.. and say not again...

btw ever hugged urself.... ever hugged by soembody wid all its being...

we know who all r frds ... foes as well... but then why do we take them for granted who mean the most to us... may be i m generalising it... n i shudnt be doing it...

lemme say it.. i m the one for whom i have mentioned all that above.. and i wud love to meet certain ppl who dont go by the above rules...

but!! nahh!!! i dont want to meet such ppl on the contrary (damn i m such a contradiction by myself)...i m sure they r missing out on a lot...

they r missing out on the whole marathon thg... sure they r calm n composed n everythg inside.. as they need not have to be part of this ... but then wats fun , to be just neutral... whr is the spice...

u keep on running after somethg. n den u realise that damn!!! wat the f**k.... getting it was nvr fun.. the chasing was... he he he!!!

and den u swear forever that nvr in ur life u ll be part of the 'run'.... and wid the next morning u start... u start all over again... u dont even learn from ur mistakes... mistakes????? nah!!! not mistakes... u love every bit of it.. u love it coz it taught u somethg... and also taught u to unlearn somethg... taught u to gear up.. and std again... taught u to look out for wats next???

most importantly teaches u to shout it out loud!!..

BRING IT ON !!!!

bunked!!! not again...

sunny-kahan hai??

me-classs ja rahi hun...

sunny-U turn maar.. wapis aa... we are meeting..

me-pagal ho gaya hai.. main pahunch gayi hun...

sunny-stay out i m coming to pick u up... will drop u back... fir ghar nikal jana..

me-pagal hai kya.. school ya college thodi hai.. me not bunking... get lost!!!

sweety- whr r u??

me-reached class.. sitting...

sweety-close ur books.. come out..

me-nahi yar.. class hai... aane wale hain sir..

sweety-come out abhi!! we are meeting.. tu pahunch me and sunny are just on the way....

me-ok :-) ll be thr before u...

had a great time..went to Mocha.. ate nothing... just a sip of some chocolate drink.. hated it...

asked for the check ..

me and sunny ran!!!

and i told the guard.. bhaiya wo jo ladki baithi hai na.. wo pay karegi.. jane mat dena use...

poor sweety paid... ;-)

may accenture pay her well... Amen!!!

i m at peace... m i not??

yes i m ...

wat is it..??

have i understood u better....

nah!!! not possible....

i have understood myself better wid respect to ur understanding...

guj visit

reminder 2- Ashish sharma plz give my digi cam... if u want to buy it den gimme 15K.. i m all set to sell it off to the one who is in love wid it... plz de deyar... apne bachho ki mundan ceremony ke baad dega kya... dont force me to send cops at ur place..just because u got few stuff (2 T shirts,a dress,two footwear,t shits for my brother,cosmetics,hand bag) from Australia u think i ll spare u.. plz find better ways to call me to ur place...

me in gujarat.. came on 28th going back on 31st...

reason for a sudden visit... "baby! how do u look,,, i have forgotten ur face".....isse pehle ki husband starts calling me.. abhilasha ben.. i though ii must rush to him... anyways.. he calls me a guest faculty.... its just a matter of a month sweetheart ..

i thought i ll avoid mentioning my mother in law.. but den every effort goes in vain...so here it is..

a day before i came...

me-hello momy!.. main soch rahi thi ki main teen chaar din ke liye aa jaun...

mil-kyon! teri class nahi hai kya... miss karegi to fir dekhna..

me-nahi momy! classs nahi hai... thoda breeak diya hai.. wapis 1st april se hai..(i lied)

mil-haan aa ja.. achha hi rahega...

me-kuchh lana hai aapke liye yahan se..

mil-haan! dekh le.. teen chaar suits le aana... aur kuchh achha lage.. tu dekh lena,...

me-:-) haan momy!... main le aaungi...

mil-arey seema (sis in law) ke liye bhi..

me-haan haan momy! bilkul..chalo rakhti hun.. class jana hai... (fav show coming on tv)

the day i reached

me-aa gayi main momy!!..

mil-achha kiya..

me-haan! wahi na.. dekho aapko suits achhe lage to theek hai,.. else i ll get them changed..

mil-achhe hain!... khud ke liye nahi liye kya..

me- le lungi.. kahan ja rahi hun...

mil-tujhe meri jaisi saas kabhi milegi.. tera kitna kaam karti hun.. tera room dekh... teri almirah dekh.. faela kar chale jati hai... tere sandals dekh kaise arrange kare hain maine... koi ehsaan hi nahi hai...

me-arey! momy!! aap to aap ho na.. aap ho hi itne achhe... main to abhi seekh rahi hun na.. i really look upto u.. main apnni almirah chahe set bhi kar lun.. but the way u keep it is remarkable.... exceptional...

mil-dekha.. sab yahi kehte hain... main itne theek se rakhti hun... ki andhere mein bhi main bata sakti hun kahan kya rakha hai...

me-wahi na... aap jaise bahut kamm log hain... n its a compliment..

fil-haan haan!! chadha apni saas ko.. kaam karaye ja meri biwi se..

me-kya daddy... zyada ustaad ban rahe ho lag raha hai.... kyon bol rahe ho... fir chiddh jayegi mom...

fil-haan chal ab makkhan mat laga...take rest!

husband dear- ab panchayat karti rahegi kya..bakwas karva lo bas...kabhi chup bhi reh liya kar..

sigh!!!!

more bout the trip..

as promised ... here comes more bout the trip...

amidst the temperature of below zero degree... water .. rain... mud...

the trip was finalised i think even before my birth... my dear parents went to vaishno devi and asked for a daughter and the barter was.. if they get a darling daughter she wud come in return...i mean excuse me... if u made the deal.. it was suppose to be on u... so from that time till 12th feb 2011.. abhilasha was struggling hard to be thr.. and not to forget that my dear parents took no pain to take me to the respective place... so finally it was suppose to be wid my frds/.. i even asked my husband to accompany me but den he is like.. any place but a pilgrimage.. he financed and wished me luck to carry on..

poor husband not just financed for me.. but also for my frds..

reached thr .. took a hotel.. and then started for the journey... tough it is.. really hard.. reached up thr by 11 but it took like 4 hrs to finally reach the shrine...

my experience wen i reached thr.. was beyond the ideas that i had in my head...it was serene.. a deep calmness... a cool breeze... dont know how to put it in wrds... somethg inside me was quite... quite for a fraction of second.. as if .. this was the day i was longing for.. i m spiritual but yeah religious in its literal sense no i m not... but den it was diferent... cant be described,... all of a sudden i felt a jerk.. and i told my frds/... somethg mite happen to me... dis is the day i was waiting for... and i told dem.. if somethg happens to me... plz take care... these were my last wrds.. i remember so vividly... and den i just collapsed .. as told to me by my frds.. and after that i have no idea wat happened.. my frd lifted me to the near by bench... all the near by uncles and aunties surrounded us... some water, some glucose.. some medicine i think.. i dont know..but then after a while i recollected myself... my frds said.. abhi lets go back.. i told dem.. "ab yahan tak aa gaye hain.. to wapis nahi jayenge".... nd finally we joined the queue again...

now the funny part starts,,,, frds kept on teasing me.. show stopper..le gayi saari limelight... agar aisa kuchh karna hi tha to aage kar leti thoda... humein line mein nahi lagna padta... aage peechhe wali aunties were like.. arey wo theek ho gayi jo tumhare sath thi... i was like,,, aunty wo main hi thi... boo hoo!!!...

darshan got over.. we went further up... at 3.. all dark.. no electricity.. me on a horse.. side mein khaayi... filmy scene lag raha hai na...i know man!... bad it was... but den ab yaad karti hun to achha lagta hai...

while coming back.. it was raining badly.. we bought rain coats... RS.5 per head.. den we took a shelter at a dharamshala... i encountered somethg strange... and weird... in a hall full of 50 ppl...thr were two uncle aunty.. 40+ to honge hi... in one blanket... dont know wat they were upto... so many ppl are lying by ur side... thodi to sharam kar lo yar... in the middle of 50 ppl... how can one make out.. may be they found the apt place for the honeymoon.... but den saanu ki....we were like.... btw abhi.. wat do u think wats goign on... i was like... why dont u give the commentary... and he just started off... hilarious it was...

den we came back to our hotel room... slept like logs...den came back on 14th...

dont know.. wen ll i be going back to the same place.. one thg is for sure.. i had experienced somethg beyond wrds... soemthg i ll always hold on to.. now n forever..

i m back..

first and foremost-Ashish sharma plz give my camera back... its been more then two months... and plz buy urs.. now since u r married.. bahut saara dahej aaya hoga.. kindly utilise... and dont u dare take my camera for ur honeymoon.. my dad is dying to have a glance of the camera... he is all set to click more then thousand pics once he gets hold of it...

anyways... lifes been ok... yeah ! well.. yes!!!.. from 12th to 23rd were the most busy days..

12th went to jammu

14th delhi..

16th rajasthan

18th guajart

23rd back to delhi..

end of it... me all tired.. head to toe

had a fabulous time wid frds at jammu....

rajasthan i went to meet my mom... was dying to meet her... i met her after like six months..thk u ma.. for being my mom....

i know i m a difficult child.. had always given u a tough time... but mom,i know u handled me so well..

tell me how r u able to read my mind... how can u come up wid exactly same wrds that i want to say... how can u simply read my eyes n recite an entire story... mom i love u..

i m thrilled to see u all busy... i m thrilled to see u handling two houses so wonderfully... i m in awe of seeing u as the son of ur family... ma gimme just 10% of wat u r.. n i m sure my life wud be sorted... mom ur scent makes my day...

classes r ok... bored i m... but den if i have taken a responsibility i have to fulfill it..

was standing outside the institute... the same asshole was just passing by in his car... he slowed down.. n waved at me n said hi as if we were long lost frds n meeting after a long time...

some ppl just dont realise that they are assholes...phewwww!!!!